marude, nani ka attan watashi no sei de.

it's not as if i don't want to help. just this once i've screwed up. not as if i am always on the clouds 24/7. i'm not a watchdog. i've tried to be better by helping. i've tried to do more. and i'm keeping myself mum, co si know the best retaliation is no retaliation. say what you want. ya right. sometimes, things that you tried to do are never enough. it's the things that you don't do that makes it obvious. in other words, even if you were to do a hundred good things, people will only blame you for that little thing you didn't do.
so i'm just closing on myself now. blast the music on my headphones so i can shut the noise from outside. so i won't hear the nagging, no matter how close. so i won't think about it anymore, no matter how strongly i oppose. it's never others' faults. it's your fault. atashi no sei de. yes me.

i guess it's times like this i feel glad i'll be away soon...