Thursday, January 20, 2011

Too harsh to tell is the correct phrase.

and why would you be slowly withdrawing away? :( the fortune prediction at yishun says the opposite.

and i can't ever imagine you stabbing me... although i do expect it might be at the coming competition...

T.T why am i bothered over such a senseless app... gahh well at least i know a few good things

-that 바보 is there when i need you
-that ms boss respects me more than it seems

bleah. ok time to kick the weird thoughts outta here

Monday, January 17, 2011

It's not that i don't feel good staying home for 2 consecutive MCs... it's more of because it's 2 sick leave in a row that i feel bad TT

i spent the worst day of my life yesterday coiling in pain and rolling around, while vomiting and diarrhea-ing at the same time for about 3+ hours until i braced myself to walk downstairs and see the doctor. then i received a jab in my butt (oww...) and went back to continue diarrhea-ing and vomiting for another 2 more times before it died down a bit around 6pm.

still having occasional achings, but at least it isn't as bad as yesterday. remind me to never eat steamboat again... or rather if i have to, i won't be doing all the cooking. i think it's cos of the half-cooked food and the rainy ingredients that caused my food poisoning. and i finally realised what is 上呕下泻. not very fun. i guess the only positive thing is my tummy is now flat. HAHA.

and thank goodness it's not as serious as what azel went through, i could still recuperate at home! i'm hungry now but i don't dare to eat the bread+egg+cheese my mom prepared. the doc says i shouldn't eat dairy products... and that's 3 dairy products packed into 1. gahhhh.

oh yes and i changed my blogskin last week. heehee. now it's all bright and not too black... hopefully better (",)

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

J.Y.J - Found You (찾았다)
Sungkyunkwan Scandal (성균관 스캔들)

Recently got addicted to this drama series (yes i've already finished it actually). It's a typical girl disguised as guy story line, where the main guy character and the girl dislikes each other and grew to love each other later on. So much like Coffee Prince and You are Beautiful. but i still love it!
And this song kinda grew on me *_* Yoochun looks so different in his modern style and the traditional style! I also realised that JYJ is a branch off DBSK, and DBSK has already split. Oh well. Yoochun's voice is a bit rough, but still sexy *_*
Gu Yong Ha (by Sung Joon Ki) is also hilarious in the show - he makes me laugh in all the episodes! I love ambiguous characters like that. hahaha. "I am Gu Yong Ha! 나구용하야!"



HANGUL

솔직히 처음엔 몰랐어
우연한 만남 있었지만
이제껏 난 기쁨보단
아픔을 더 많이 배웠어

눈물이 많았던 나지만
너에겐 웃음만 줄거야
이제서야 내 반쪽을 찾았나 봐
이렇게 가슴이 뛰고 있잖아

찾았다 내 사랑 내가 찾던 사람
뜨겁게 안아주고 싶어
가만히 눈을 감아 줄래
내가 입 맞춰줄 수 있게
사랑해 널 사랑해
찾았다 내 곁에 둘 한 사람

마음을 닫았던 나지만
너에겐 내 마음 줄거야
이제서야 내 반쪽을 찾았나 봐
이렇게 가슴이 뛰고 있잖아

찾았다 내 사랑 내가 찾던 사람
뜨겁게 안아주고 싶어
가만히 눈을 감아 줄래
내가 입 맞춰줄 수 있게
사랑해 널 사랑해
찾았다 내 곁에 둘 한 사람

다쳤던 내 마음 아픈 상처 다 안아준 사람
더 많이 사랑해 주고 싶어 언제까지나

찾았다 내 사랑 내가 찾던 사람
뜨겁게 안아주고 싶어
가만히 눈을 감아 줄래
내가 입 맞춰줄 수 있게
가만히 눈을 감아 줄래
내가 입 맞춰줄 수 있게
사랑해 널 사랑해
찾았다 내 곁에 둘 한 사람

고맙다 내 곁에 와 줘서...

ROMANIZATION

soljiki cheoeumen mollaseo
wuyeonhan mannam isseotjiman
ijekkeot nan gippeum bodan
apeumeul deo mani baewosseo

nunmuri manatdeon najiman
neo egen usseuman julgeoya
ijeseoya nae banjjokeul chajatnabwa
ireoke gaseumi ddwigo itjana

chajatda nae sarang naega chatdeon saram
ddeugeopge anajugo shipeo
gamanhi nuneul gamajulae
naega ibmacheo julsu itge
saranghae neol saranghae
chajatda nae gyeote dul han saram

maeumeul dadatdeon najiman
neo egen nae maeumeul julgeoya
ijeseoya nae banjjokeul chajatnabwa
ireoke gaseumi ddwigo itjana

chajatda nae sarang naega chatdeon saram
ddeugeopge anajugo shipeo
gamanhi nuneul gamajulae
naega ibmacheo julsu itge
saranghae neol saranghae
chajatda nae gyeote dul han saram

dacheotdeon nae maeum apeun sangcheo da anajun saram
deo mani saranghae jugo shipeo eonjekkajina

chajatda nae sarang naega chatdeon saram
ddeugeopge anajugo shipeo
gamanhi nuneul gamajulae
naega ibmacheo julsu itge
gamanhi nuneul gamajulae
naega ibmacheo julsu itge
saranghae neol saranghae
chajatda nae gyeote dul han saram

gomabda nae gyeote wa jwoseo



TRANSLATION

Honestly I didn't know at first
Though there was a coincidental meeting
Until now more than happiness
I learned a lot more about pain

I had a lot of tears
But I'll only give you laughter
I finally found my other half
My heart is racing like this

I found you, my love, the person I've been looking for
I want to embrace you passionately
Stay still and close your eyes
So that I can kiss you
I love you, I love you
I found you, the one person to stay beside me

I had closed my heart
But to you I'll give my heart
I finally found my other half
My heart is racing like this

I found you, my love, the person I've been looking for
I want to embrace you passionately
Stay still and close your eyes
So that I can kiss you
I love you, I love you
I found you, the one person to stay beside me

The person who embraced my wounded heart and painful scars
I want to give you even more love always

I found you, my love, the person I've been looking for
I want to embrace you passionately
Stay still and close your eyes
So that I can kiss you
Stay still and close your eyes
So that I can kiss you
I love you, I love you
I found you, the one person to put beside me

Thank you for coming to my side...

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

I think this is going to be a super busy year for me. x_x

It's 5.44 now and I just went through a day of endless meetings, status updates, calls and stuff and I've finally found a short breathing space for myself at this time (even though I'm still not done with my stuff yet - are they actually trying to force me to work harder ughh). The things seem to stack up at exponential rate when #1 is around TT

I'm getting so lazy nowadays - my sewing machine is being fixed in Malaysia, so no sewing will be done this week. Am too lazy to work on props, and I wasted my whole Sunday watching this Jap drama called 百鬼夜行抄. I didn't even finish it and I went on to watch some other random videos and read online manga. So much for never going online or using PC after 6 and on weekends... now I'm regretting spending my Sunday that way because I feel so sleepy now and my eyes are hurting from UV infestation. ughh... And of course, I'd switch on skype just to look at a certain green lighted name.
보고싶어...

Random scary things I discovered. I went shopping with my mom and sis at Jurong Point on Christmas and I realised I totally lost interest in shopping. I didn't even want to look at the clothes, felt that it was a total waste of time. Come to think of it, when was the last time I bought new clothes? Hmm... I even wanted to go home early - which I did - and in the end I was stupidly stuck below my deck for 3 hours because I forgot to take my keys with me and no one was home. Worst Christmas ever. TT I think I might have even lost interest in all the special occasions. Perhaps staying home is the best way to celebrate them. There seems to be no point in squeezing with the overpopulated areas (worst still, by myself).

555pm on 110111. Time to get back to work.

Thursday, January 06, 2011

I can't believe it, is this gonna be a year for me to ramp up on politics?!
Politics in cosplay, politics at work. oh my. I guess it is the reality now.

I can keep mum for one, but i can't for two. I once thought i was someone immune to all these, but now i'm getting dragged into all the shitstorm. now, how do i wring myself out of all these? i wish i can just dig a hole and hide forever.

on another topic. i'm really upset with myself. i hate how i'm pushing myself so hard, and you probably don't even give a damn. or you don't know. i want to give up, but i don't really want to disappoint :(

please find me a place to hide.
나를싫어해요.
당신은왜제옆에업습니다까... 어려워요...

Monday, January 03, 2011



<매리는외박중ost>
My Precious - 장근석

수줍은 그 속삭임 스며드는 귓가에
소복하게 쌓여가는 우리들의 이야기
서로를 바라보며 살아가는
참 어리석고 예쁜 모습들


타박타박 걸어가는 나지막한 골목길
틈 사이로 비춰오는 한모금의 햇살처럼
무엇조차 알 수 없던 나에게
작은 꿈하나를 심어주는 너


My Precious(My Precious)
My Precious(My Precious)
가시같았던 기억들이
흔적도 없이 사라질만큼
따뜻하게


My Precious(My Precious)
My Precious(My Precious)
작은 한걸음조차 소중히
간직하게 될 것만 같은
이런 설레임


기분좋은 바람에 스치는 옷깃 위로
부서지는 너의 눈빛 두손을 모아 담으며
철없이 그저 순수했던 날들이
내 가슴위로 전해져 온다


유난히 간절했던 잃어버린 내 바램들
머뭇머뭇 추억이다 한숨짓고 돌아서며
혼자서만 남겨질 것 같았던
나의 두손을 꼭 잡아주던 너


My Precious(My Precious)
My Precious(My Precious)
부서질것만 같던 가슴을
말없이 쓰다듬어 줬던 너의 손길


My Precious(My Precious)
My Precious(My Precious)
너만 곁에 있다면 무엇도
해낼 수 있을것만 같은
이런 설레임


My Precious(My Precious)
어떤 햇살보다 따뜻한
My Precious(My Precious)
어떤 보석보다 찬란한
부서질것만 같던 가슴을
말 없이 쓰다듬어 줬던 너의 손길


My Precious(My Precious)
어떤 하늘보다 깨끗한
My Precious(My Precious)
어떤 유리보다 투명한


너만 곁에 있다면 무엇도
해낼 수 있을것만 같은
이런 설레임


My Precious

sujubeun geu soksagim seumyodeuneun gwitgae
sobokhage ssatyoganeun urideul eui iyagi
sororeul barabomyeo saraganeun
chamorisokgo yeppeun moseupdeul

tabaktabak goroganeun najimakhan golmokgil
teum sairo bichwo oneun hanmogeum eui hessalchorom
muotjocha al su eopdon naege
jageun kkumhanareul simojuneun no

My Precious(My Precious)
My Precious(My Precious)
gasigatatdon giokdeuri
heunjokdo opsi sarajilmankeum
ttatteuthage

My Precious(My Precious)
My Precious(My Precious)
jageun han-goreum jocha sojunghi
ganjikhage dwil gotman gateun
iron solleim

gibunjoheun barame seuchineun otgit wiro
busojineun noye nunbit dusoneul moa dameumyo
choropsi geujo sunsuhaetdeon naldeuri
nae gaseumwiro jonhejyo onda

yunanhi ganjeolhetdeon iroborin ne baraemdeul
momutmomut chuogida hansumjitgo dorasomyo
honjasoman namgyeojil gotgatatdeon
naye dusoneul kkok jabajudon no

My Precious(My Precious)
My Precious(My Precious)
busojilgeotman gatdon gaseumeul
maropsi sseudadeumo jwotdon noye son-gil

My Precious(My Precious)
My Precious(My Precious)
noman gyote itdamyon muotdo
henel su isseulgotman gateun
iron solleim

My Precious(My Precious)
otton hesalboda ttatteuthan
My Precious(My Precious)
otton bosokboda chanranhan
busojilgeotman gatdon gaseumeul
maropsi sseudadeumo jwotdeon noye son-gil

My Precious(My Precious)
otton haneulboda kkekkeuthan
My Precious(My Precious)
otton yuriboda tumyonghan

noman gyote itdamyon muotdo
henel su isseulgeotman gateun
iron solleim

My Precious ...

English Translation

Shy pervading while whispering in your ear
Our story is covered by mystery
Feels happy when we Looked at each other,
Oh look how pretty foolish it is.

While we Gently walking at the alley
the gap like a sip of illuminated by sunlight coming through
I could not even know what it is
You instill in my little dream

My Precious(My Precious)
My Precious(My Precious)

It Was like going to memories
a warm feeling
i dont want to Disappear without a trace

My Precious (My Precious)
My Precious (My Precious)

Cherish even a small step forward
This excitement
that we will cherish as

Glorious in the wind passing over the collar
Your eyes, our hands together
The days of just pure sales work
Handed over while my heart comes

I was desperate and lost hope of an exceptionally
Broken sentences are still reminiscence turns
Were likely to be left alone
Did you hold on tight to my hands

My Precious (My Precious)
My Precious (My Precious)

Seemed my heart keeps beating
Silence gave your hand to me

My Precious (My Precious)
My Precious (My Precious)

If only you can passed by what ever it is
Can make it just like
This excitement

My Precious (My Precious)
Warmer than the sun
My Precious (My Precious)
More than any brilliant gem

Seemed my heart keeps beating
Silence gave your hand to me

My Precious (My Precious)
Which is cleaner than the sky
My Precious (My Precious)
More transparent, than some glass

If only you can passed by what ever it is
Can make it just like
This excitement

My Precious ...
2010 has been the most epic year of my life!

eventhough i never thought i would have done them... so here's the list of people i'm thankful to...

1. mm, my wcs partner, for psychoing me to enter those crazy competitions. first it was just 'let's go korea!!!!' and then it became 'why not japan?!?!'. these were the times and events that totally changed the rest of my 2010 (and maybe 2011 as well?) we've had our fair share of quarrels and abuse (ok, fine, i was the one who was doing that) but i'm really still glad that everything happened.

2. tkh and steph, the organisers. well, without them, none of these crazy stuff would have happened right??? even though i felt i had been really disappointing... i still want to thank them for giving us a chance to step onto the world stage. for bringing us to korea and japan, and for opening our worlds to other... worlds 8D. i have also received much valuable advice and learnings from tkh throughout that i will remember for life.

3. 000. if not for the epic waterproof versatile flexible knockproof PIZAZZ PHWOARRR LED armour (and MS's backflip!!) i fell in love with in korea... i pretty much doubt i'd have continued what i was doing. (i was seriously going to give up after korea, blah) for the performance invitation, and for creating all the lovely memories i could keep for life *_* for bringing me to lotte world, because i love theme park so much... because my idol realised all the dreams i've never thought of i felt i could die in peace already anyday.

4. my mom. for rubbing aloe vera gel for me everyday, preparing lunchboxes, breakfast and dinner so i wouldn't starve. for buying so many health supplements - what fish oil, fitline, blah blah... i'm really overnourished...! for telling me to go get a bf and stop camping at home because you were worried. and telling me about all the potential guys at your workplace that's really NOT potential at all... aiyoh! i'd snap and get irritated by the constant naggings because i couldn't much stand it, but i don't mean it. there is really no one like family, and no one who loves me more than you do. and i want to let you know, that i love you too. thank you mom <3

5. some others who died from listening to my constant gushings and meaningless complaints, or just idle talk - if you are reading this (which i can say with 100% conviction that they don't), here's the list:

#1. good luck with her since she's coming feb! fellow libran... ><
#2. hopping spastic rabbit... DX bishhhh!
#3. lao ban niang... thousand dollar notes for ban luck?!?! crazy... and i'm still apologetic towards you TT
#4. for loving singapore so much! i'll love you so much if i'm a guy...
#5. first day when we came back, i can't believe we skyped the whole day. and.. ice cream *_*
#6. so did you bring your vending machine with you??? strong stomach sia... and i'll see you next june in japan! 8D
#7. for remembering to bring back joongi's poster, and always randomly cheering me up. (",)
#8. for all the mag coverage... and many, many party shots. for treating me like a friend. i hope i won't let you down...!

and so, if you made it to this list... here's my new year resolution: Do not let loyalty and faithfulness forsake you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart.